Leaving one world behind…


Leaving one world behind…Every day, second and hour is an challenge for me. There is no way to escape these thoughts or the world outside my little bubble. So I try to just breath and take another day and just believe that everything will be all right. It is hard, because I feel so lonely. My heart aches and my brain is empty and full at the same time.

CriesHere they decreased Cipralex down to 10 mg, I hope that I am completely off them by the end of next week. This medicine helped me through the rough path of losing my right front tooth and broke down my “perfect world”. But now as the life raise up like the Phoenix bird I see it all clearer than ever. I am alone, there is no one taking care of me, like I do with others. Of course this sounds really harsh and unfair for you whom are here for me. But this is only to describe how I feel on my inside, underneath my flesh and skin. So I cannot take this anymore, I have to escape…

I do not hope you think that I complain, because I feel like a burden that is to hard to bear with. Like the darkness that always flows as a river through upstream. I am so unsure, at the same time I know what is best for me and everybody else. Do you ever feel like this? Or am I alone with this as well.. Like I am with everything?

I just want someone to understand me and take me away. I am tired and exhausted, trying to explain my illness. I have a limit, even though it seams like I can take anything. But I cannot take anymore, my cup is full…

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