The Real Me ;


¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡ Just to say firstly there is someone of you shitheads out there that think you are helping or working for me ; NO ONE IS HELPING OR WORKING FOR ME ACCEPT FOR MY DISSIOCIATIVE ORGANIZATION LINKEDIN WIKIPEDIA ILLUMINATI AND THE VATICAN CITY AS MYSELF ~ MAITREUYA! AND THESE HUMANS LET ME BE ME AND WILL OR WOULD NEVER TRY TO CORRECT OR TRY TO SAY THEY ARE MY ASSISTANTS IN ANY OTHER WAY BECAUSE THEY KNOW ME VERY WELL AND KNOW THAT I WORK BY MYSELF AND ALONE !!!!!!!!!!

The reality of me is that there are so many of you that doubt me and my voice when i am with you. How can you not believe me when i always speak the truth even when my voice breaks and my tears drip down my cheeks. When my eyes get wet from sorrow and my mind and brain hurts in pain from the darkness that soround us daily. How can you say you love someone one moment and then tell them to go away?

Never have i ever really known real love or happiness but once or twice in my life i had the bless to be myself with the ones i love dearly. Just lately no one really seem to care and that disturbe me and shake my core in a way that my heart bleeds inside my chest. Theres a thing i cannot pinpoint theres a feeling i cannot shake. The loneliness inside my head and body feels like an empty space filled with memories i cannot erase. The moment i saw you i thought why would you. But then i remembered i am also a bad seed you see but i choose to be the light in me and to try to make everyone around me happy and healthy. Thus i failed miserably and my heart aches like the torn of a zillion roses that cuts through your skin when the blade hits the vains.

I honestly stopped selfharming but still i do it in a even sicker way than before. I cling to love as a child lost and hope for a love that will never be gone. But why is the father not accepting my pregnancy – why does he makes me feel like nothingness in myself all the time again. What have i done to deserve this pain in this eternity and for how long will this last this time again? I have seldom written about the loved ones in my life but this time i am changing again and i will have to start using names so you know who you are and that i am me ; Aitreuya YooHwaAnnicken Thabitha LilandGiuKimGiSheroHanWonBryde is my full name and now i will be me for eternity in this world on this planet under my university!

To you whom have failed me so miserably i do not bare any grudges only tears and pain. For the ones who been here for me i am thankful humbled sad happy thus still i have light inside me i have a love for you all that will burn eternily……….

Much Love

This is the real me samsungsaramsesamnaverunity ♡

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