again the place i had to grow up is thinking they can do whatever they want. to us who have nothing except for ourselves and have gone through a living hell. i know my life is not the worst one on earth and if the choice was presented i would only change a few things. i would change some of you ppl that have met me in real life. because you have not been my choice but criminal culprits. yes i have met you in a time in less control but to take advantage of someone who cannot say properly no. is on you not on me and i know this for sure. because my vengeance has grown strong. being human makes me hold back because doing something illegal is not a choice. but i will assure you if i could i would cut your heads clean off.
thus these day i am happy and home the passport country is tourmenting my soul. so i telling you this i could not care less. than to let you abuse the power you suggest. remember now that i am suddenly back and will straight you up with tears in my eyes. the more i see of my seoul i grow founder and see how life is for other humans. around here there are ppl people humans and animals but somewhat i know someone also sees everything. walking around and see so little personalities but dressed facades to show a unraw self is sad but also understandable to me. because trust me i know how it is to look different.
for years i have been told i am not enough and suddenly someone tells me i do too much. i do not understand the connection and chosen words but we are all right to have our own opinions. i respect and listen but do not tell me you know me. because sadly few of you ask me personal questions. not that i would answer from my time now because i always talk in the past. nevertheless am i a minority just because i am born in north korea. from where i wish to hope to find my birthplace because not knowing this will always keep me restless. i am at peace with what life has given me so far and hope you see what i do to stay alive. i met so many humans upon till now and only been her for 5weeks. surely i have not seen all of seoul but there is time and days to come to experience more. the season is changing everybody says winter is coming. but what is winter when i grew up in norway. i do not know how the winter is here but i love all seasons and seldom freeze. thus i also know i wish to travel around korea i take my time because i wish to walk this city.
as for my eatingdisorders it probably look better than it is because i now eat every single day. but this is something outside my control because not letting myself selfharm is making it strong. but i will keep fighting both for me and my body hoping to someday feel a little more.