Failing Is Not The Worst In Life

thinking this life and planet is not meant for the honest and open. i now have a soul that really does not care what others think or say anymore. but if you are a liar one who just assume and only care about yourself or those who fit your frame of humans you should be ashamed and find a new path in your life. knowing i also have accepted almost everything throughout my life from different people have and will always be a trauma for me as long as i am alive. so now i am and still will clean out my closet deleting some of you and maybe for the rest of our lives. there is a chance to correct the wrongdoings the hurtful words and the solitude space it seems like you placed me in all my life. but i will not say i am sorry anymore because honestly i have actually done nothing wrong except for trying to stand for my own life. well yes i have probably been to honest for your taste and as always i am the one to blame so it easier to keep living your lies. but if you dig within your own souls you will find the answer and hopefully see why i tried to reach out asking for help the way i am doing and see the reality for what it is. being me has not been easy and i know that this is a lifetime event. because separating myself from toxin and people is what has been taking place since i was put on medicine that destroyed my health body and brain. these pills did not help me but made me a lesser human in every way. they took away my personality and made me into a soulless shell of stupidity with the worst judgement since 2010. seeing they might help some but also not making me think ; hey either they want to be drugged down or have an excuse for doing absolutely nothing in their lives.


the era we are going through now is filled with prescription drugs addicts alcoholics abusers criminals corruption murderers racists and us who fight for something real here in our lives. taking a stand on which side to stay on is something that some of you are struggling with and might should start to think of. i hope that someday you wake up and see how you treat your children family friends colleagues neighbours and loved ones. because seeing this from a place far away makes the pieces fall into a completely different place this time. learning that some of you still play the game of #iampretendingtobethebestandperfect is a laughable joke of people thinking they are all that. i am sorry to have to say that some of you should wake up an teach eachother that a good soul is the most beautiful a human can be throughout life. it does not matter if you have a master of whatever degree because education is so much more than a paper. working is something everybody does because the money is needed for life on earth. sadly some of you actually kill innocent humans for a living and walk freely around because the safety is absent some places here on planetearth.


i do not know how humanity will solve this problem but to shine a light on the reality is what the world needs. you think to highly of yourselves and the lies you are living but it also seems like you appreciate this more for an unexplainable reason. so for the future the world seems hopelessly helpless but we are not the one to give up our hope for the rest of the living. as for myself i will honestly admit i am lonely but this is better than having people who pretend they love me around. so for me and my baby i will always keep an eye and ear open but failing is also a part of our lives. so please just stay away if your intention is to only talk to me to boost your ego or narcissistic persona and not be here for us. since i know i am not the best to stay in contact myself i ask you to please remember i have been let down in my life. i am trying so hard to believe that the ones i love want to keep me in their private lives. for me this will take some time because of personal trauma and the fear of being rejected and feeling unwanted all my life. thus i also know that being alone is not the worst that can happen to a person in this time i still have some i love in my heart.


much love