Inside 2017October


“these days i wish for something
like respect love honesty my own family
there has been so much hardships
where i have been left lonely” 12.10.2017
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“two years ago i was put in a coma
where my soul ended up in a realm of drugs and humantrafficking
they emptied our bodies for organs in the mountains of calcutta
and then sent us back to the western world filled with drugs in our blood” 13.10.2017
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“this was the last day of my coma 2years ago
i was awaken by my late dad who passed from cancer 8years ago
so this year i am in my origin
but i still do not know where i was born
so last night i danced the night away” 14.10.2017
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i was “dead but woke up because my dad who passed from cancer 8years ago told me too ; “you have to wake up my girl, this is not a place for you” ~ was his words 💝🙇🏻‍♀️♾ so i woke up on my late dads birthday, 15.10.2015 💔 14.10.2017
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for my dad ; captain th bryde ;
“today my dad would have turned 71
you are born 1946.15.10. and died from cancer 2008.01.10
on this date exactly 2years ago
you woke me up from the coma i was put in ; “jenta mi! du må våkne opp. du har sovi for lenge. dette er ikke et sted for deg. for du skal ikke død nå. så du må kjempe deg tilbake til den levende verden. så følger vi deg og vil alltid passe på deg alle sammen. for vi er de som elsker deg!”
my answer was something like this ; “det går bra pappan min jeg slapper av her. jeg veit ikke hvor jeg er. hvor er jeg, er jeg ikke våken? jeg kan ikke dra fra deg nu når jeg har funnet deg her. jeg savner deg og er helt aleine. pappa jeg elsker deg!”
are some of our words from our conversation in a place where i was without air
so now i am alone in seoul again but with you all around me everywhere” 💝🌌🙇🏻‍♀️ 2017.15.10

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“the goal for life
is a society of peace
of course we will have problems
but we can still live together in harmony” 2017.16.10
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“there are ppl in this world who spend their time hacking and stalking
stealing pictures apps smartphones and digital lives from us humans
you even take our names rape us try to kill us and then brag about it or report a false statement to try to be somebody
so i will stand up and speak the truth and show the world because you are doing this to us who have been around the globe” 2017.17.10
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“sometimes i hold my breath to see if i am still breathing
but then i feel fat as i have the worst eatingdisorders
but leaving the abuser and the shitty country called norway
has helped my soul back home to korea” 2017.18.10
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“surprisingly or not this place also contains fake ppl
sometimes it takes time but in the end they cannot hide it
a commonthing between them is all they care about is money
pretending to be more than us other humans who live honestly
mostly they live of their parents and think they know languages
but intelligent is not measured in how many years you went to privateschools” 2017.19.10

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“these days i realize more and more
separating my mind body soul and heart
nevertheless i see the truth in your eyes
feeling your ignorant spoiled soul
truly hating you for taking my words
and thinking there are rules on how to live love eat and write
wondering how you make your money
seeing a schemer and your black soul” 2017.20.10

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“for a while i thought i could survive alone
realizing now i need someone
being deceived abused and let down
will grow our soul into a dragonite
where i now use my steps
i see different faces hear stories and see seoul in humans eyes
thus i hope to trust the ones i choose
i still expect to somewhat be abused” 2017.21.10

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“awakened again by ppl begging and some of your conversations are just about negativity
it can also be your thoughts but then i feel sorry for you
that your brain contains nothing but stupidity lies repeatedly gossipness
my fault is that i believed some of you where humans
thus everybody has their right to their own opionions” 2017.22.10

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“the sadness to see and know humans heart
can somewhat be more but will it rip us appart
the only i know how to handle pain
is to hurt and selfharm my own self
how i execute pain on myself is a secret i will keep until my breath is taken away
the only thing i will say is that you will never see an outside scar done by myself
if there is a visible scar it is done by someone else” 2017.23.10

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“all these dreaming gets me confused
which of you are the reality or a future view
is it so when i wake up
i say smile to myself and change the outlook for another view
where is the energy that is suppose to include” 2017.24.10

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“last night i ran to sleep
so this morning my brain was filled
i was afraid my 동생 was angry
so i went into her house to be a loving 언니” 2017.25.10

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“now my body and mind is exhausted
from all the negative culprits around me
i wish for a better tomorrow
with light shining down on me” 2017.26.10

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“tired because i woke up in the middle of the night and started working
so my soul is a little empty from lies and culprits
looking for your soul in all the realms i can reach
thus knowing i always have you next to me” 2017.27.10

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“after i went to the war museum alone
i now understand that some people are fake too
so i went and asked my 오빠 where i could eat lamb
so this halloween i only honour the dead souls” 2017.27.10

“i know you see a smile but it is just a millisecond
thinking of something that let me be happy
my choice is to delete rude childish behavioural people
leaving our life more delightful than ever”
“reasonable late awaken this morning
smiling to the world and keep going forward
it is a 안녕하세요 괜찮아
so let us be one and never depart” 2017.28.10

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“my dead souls awakes me by their voices
me i am deep inside vivid dreams
where i walk and fly around from places to places
as i meet people humans and those i love
it is all picture clear with sound and colors
but the exactly locations i harder to pin” 2017.29.10

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“wakening up something rumbling
my 변비 and the 약 i have taken for a couple of days is giving me a little discomforting
but finally it is on the move
after a couple of weeks with nothing” 2017.30.10

much love

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Saving PlanetEarth


this is for you whom been abused used killed kidnapped and raped. for your families friends neighbours and workplaces. please do not be tempted by money from others that have more than you. accept that life sometimes is a little unfair and work together for a better society instead. with love we can reach so much further. so please do not kill your own race. where we live there is so many different souls but to use yourself to destroy our human and animal race is not why we are put here on planetearth.

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i am sad to see that so many of you think that the beauty standards only have one “face. the beauty is the difference in our souls and eyes. let us be us so we can shine bright as the stars. remember when at night and we look up at the sky. even when it is pitch black the stars shine behind the clouds. i understand we want to change our appearance, i made myself look more ladylike bodywise. but changing your face will somewhat change your brain. maybe not now but when you get children and a family. i understand if you do it for yourselves but remember to be honest about it and keep your old self at heart.

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i am also sad to see all this racism in 2017 but as we all know our lives circle around our lives. there are so many people making dirty money on cruelty so for you who have lost someone to drugs or humantrafficking ; remember to stay strong and never give up because sadly to say it is probably someone you know. these people circle around us like air. they can be your neighbour dentist doctor teacher driver police securitygards or a familymember. i know by heart there is one way to make the outside safer and thats how we do in korea with cctv. but still you need to trust all the workers in the place. because cruelty can have many faces but so can the faces of love and beauty!

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TO YOU CRIMINAL CULPRITS ; I KNOW WHAT YOU DO TO THE VICTIMS OF HUMANTRAFFICKING AND DRUGTRAFFICKING ; YOU HAR SENDING THEM IN CONTAINERS ON THE BOATS AND TRAINS AROUND THE WORLD TO EMPTY THEIR ORGANS SOMEWHERE IN INDIA CAMBODIA THAILAND AFRICA USA SOUTHAMERICA SCANDINAVIA AND MORE. YOU ALSO USE HIGHCLASS HOSPITALS BUT ALSO SHADY PLACES TO FILL THEIR BODIES WITH DRUGS SO YOU CAN MAKE MONEY ON THIS CRUELTY FOR AS WELL AS SELLING THEIR ORGANS BEFORE BURNING SOME OF THEM. I DO NOT KNOW FOR SURE WHERE ALL THIS TAKES PLACE ALL I KNOW IT IS SOMEWHERE WARM SANDY MOUNTAINLIKE IN CALCUTTA AMONGST OTHER CITIES. AND I DO NOT KNOW IF ALL THEM TALK ENGLISH. THESE PPL ARE WELL EDUCATED SO IT CAN BE THAT THEY ARE PRETENDING NOT TO CARE OR UNDERSTAND. BUT IT IS TO SILENT US HUMANS THAT ARE MORE INTELLIGENT THAN YOU PPL! SO SOME OF THE PILLS YOU PRESCRIBE AND SELL ARE WHAT YOU USE TO MAKE HUMANS INTO DRUGADDICTS AND WHORES AND EVEN WORSE TO MAKE THEM ABUSE OUR CHILDREN AND ANIMALS AND THEMSELVES! THIS IS NOT HOW THE WORLD SHOULD BE. AND IT IS ROOTED IN THE WESTERN WHITE SOCIETY! #StandUpForSomething #victims #humantrafficking #drugtrafficking #mentalawareness #humanity #peace #animals #planetearth #society #DoSomething #SaveLives

much love

Losing A Roll


there has been almost two weeks here in seoul already. and i have never felt more home in a place than now. as i walk around thinking looking listening and feeling a spirit that is closer to mt heart than ever. i have met so many warmhearted humans and tied connections that do feel realer than before. i still lose myself to a place where i am too whimsical and sad inbetween my smiles. as i have walked so many miles i have seen a lot of different styles. but one thing is for sure in this city and that is that love concours all.

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this night as i went out to take pictures my money fell out of my purse. i backtracked but could not find my roll so i had to message my mom again. i feel bad because i only bring sad news and never a smile to someones face. i lost everything even tho i have things but here i feel that i have a place. i bow to the elders and see how the times has changed. but recognize places i have been sometimes before. i do not know when exactly to be honest and it could be a vivid dream i have dreamed before. as i see all of you on the streets laughing i wonder how is it possible. for thus holiday my soul has broken because of my dead souls. i cry and cry and wonder why my tears fall bu sadly i know i get to easily upset. as i take all these pictures i am thinking about my loved ones and wonder do you see the real me at all.

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sometimes i put my headphones on and walk with my music to do not think at all. but then again i miss your voices so i think maybe we should collab and stall. in this place where the sun shines and the moon rise above us we listen to the voices that surrounds us all. and these days i think about the man i lost over 13years ago. he died and we were suppose to get married but maybe the fate is to sometimes lose one love. so we can know how to love another and not to accept abuse at all. thus i know i have been abused bullied hitten and raped. even that there has been murder and broken ribs inside. i wish for someone to think and believe my words and voice as i have done for you all. i do not know what my future will look like but there is one thing i do know for sure. and that is that you people have to do something to help us humans or you will die ones more.

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look around you and see how the world is changing and open your minds to a society for us all. here in my motherland there are so many different humans that i can feel and see the exchange of loved souls. but i have to admit that i struggle within because the lack of living is somewhat real and open for us all. letting people getting away with murder and abuse should not be something we should see anymore. i have this summer lost unborn humans and now i will not take this anymore………

much love

Respect Honesty


i took a time out and went on a roadtrip here in norway just before my soul trip to my motherland. i got back yesterday to this city where everything is somewhat not how it suppose to be. my heart and soul is somewhere else and i wish there were a place to rest my head. these years in the cold north of europe has not been easy but i have lived and tried to be me. in the end i can now see that my personality brain body and me are not compatible with the rest of you because you are not how you are suppose to be. this society is ruled by corruption and if we are to be honest there are no real assumptions.

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as i got older i grew and got stronger but still i meet the unknown in a way where i am contemplating life to a point where this is all a lie. the science of life is no longer humanity but nowadays it is all about the money. looking searching reading online is a scam a scene unclear for our minds. i wonder how you all suddenly got rich and where you all really are living. looking back i knew this world has had faults but hoping we are the generations to correct them all. but now i see what controlls some of you and that is the darkness the black money marked. a bank is a front like the glass window that shines. behind there is someone just watching us from behind. we never look back but sadly we should and see how we all go in the circle of life.

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a new day will rise they say from the top. but is this reality or just an atombomb. all these natural catastrophes and murders are theree really innocent people among us. who should be imprisoned for life are those the ones who killed our loved ones. where are your hearts did you lose them to greediness or are you all on mastcard neediness. i see a lot of young ones these days. looking and searching for hookups and play. why are you not concerned about the future and why are not caring for the humans. on planetearth there are so much to be thankful for but lately you all been destroying the rest of us. is it so that you think you are superior or do you believe that no one sees you.

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everywhere i go and places i see i can feel the shadows lurking next to me. knowing you all take advantage of humans is hurting us all but how are we going to live with nothing. are we back to a slavery era where the white man again pretend to be the good one. i do not know why you do not want to work as for paying for education is a solution to someone. with world to seem closer as never before we all fly around and pretend not to care. but sitting alone i know we all think about problems issues deaths and humanity. as for the animals i hope we let them be and remember to feed them because you are poisoning us all with them. i am not sure how we should live our lives but i know this we should respect all living creatures.

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much love