this is for you whom been abused used killed kidnapped and raped. for your families friends neighbours and workplaces. please do not be tempted by money from others that have more than you. accept that life sometimes is a little unfair and work together for a better society instead. with love we can reach so much further. so please do not kill your own race. where we live there is so many different souls but to use yourself to destroy our human and animal race is not why we are put here on planetearth.
i am sad to see that so many of you think that the beauty standards only have one “face. the beauty is the difference in our souls and eyes. let us be us so we can shine bright as the stars. remember when at night and we look up at the sky. even when it is pitch black the stars shine behind the clouds. i understand we want to change our appearance, i made myself look more ladylike bodywise. but changing your face will somewhat change your brain. maybe not now but when you get children and a family. i understand if you do it for yourselves but remember to be honest about it and keep your old self at heart.
i am also sad to see all this racism in 2017 but as we all know our lives circle around our lives. there are so many people making dirty money on cruelty so for you who have lost someone to drugs or humantrafficking ; remember to stay strong and never give up because sadly to say it is probably someone you know. these people circle around us like air. they can be your neighbour dentist doctor teacher driver police securitygards or a familymember. i know by heart there is one way to make the outside safer and thats how we do in korea with cctv. but still you need to trust all the workers in the place. because cruelty can have many faces but so can the faces of love and beauty!
TO YOU CRIMINAL CULPRITS ; I KNOW WHAT YOU DO TO THE VICTIMS OF HUMANTRAFFICKING AND DRUGTRAFFICKING ; YOU HAR SENDING THEM IN CONTAINERS ON THE BOATS AND TRAINS AROUND THE WORLD TO EMPTY THEIR ORGANS SOMEWHERE IN INDIA CAMBODIA THAILAND AFRICA USA SOUTHAMERICA SCANDINAVIA AND MORE. YOU ALSO USE HIGHCLASS HOSPITALS BUT ALSO SHADY PLACES TO FILL THEIR BODIES WITH DRUGS SO YOU CAN MAKE MONEY ON THIS CRUELTY FOR AS WELL AS SELLING THEIR ORGANS BEFORE BURNING SOME OF THEM. I DO NOT KNOW FOR SURE WHERE ALL THIS TAKES PLACE ALL I KNOW IT IS SOMEWHERE WARM SANDY MOUNTAINLIKE IN CALCUTTA AMONGST OTHER CITIES. AND I DO NOT KNOW IF ALL THEM TALK ENGLISH. THESE PPL ARE WELL EDUCATED SO IT CAN BE THAT THEY ARE PRETENDING NOT TO CARE OR UNDERSTAND. BUT IT IS TO SILENT US HUMANS THAT ARE MORE INTELLIGENT THAN YOU PPL! SO SOME OF THE PILLS YOU PRESCRIBE AND SELL ARE WHAT YOU USE TO MAKE HUMANS INTO DRUGADDICTS AND WHORES AND EVEN WORSE TO MAKE THEM ABUSE OUR CHILDREN AND ANIMALS AND THEMSELVES! THIS IS NOT HOW THE WORLD SHOULD BE. AND IT IS ROOTED IN THE WESTERN WHITE SOCIETY! #StandUpForSomething #victims #humantrafficking #drugtrafficking #mentalawareness #humanity #peace #animals #planetearth #society #DoSomething #SaveLives
there has been almost two weeks here in seoul already. and i have never felt more home in a place than now. as i walk around thinking looking listening and feeling a spirit that is closer to mt heart than ever. i have met so many warmhearted humans and tied connections that do feel realer than before. i still lose myself to a place where i am too whimsical and sad inbetween my smiles. as i have walked so many miles i have seen a lot of different styles. but one thing is for sure in this city and that is that love concours all.
this night as i went out to take pictures my money fell out of my purse. i backtracked but could not find my roll so i had to message my mom again. i feel bad because i only bring sad news and never a smile to someones face. i lost everything even tho i have things but here i feel that i have a place. i bow to the elders and see how the times has changed. but recognize places i have been sometimes before. i do not know when exactly to be honest and it could be a vivid dream i have dreamed before. as i see all of you on the streets laughing i wonder how is it possible. for thus holiday my soul has broken because of my dead souls. i cry and cry and wonder why my tears fall bu sadly i know i get to easily upset. as i take all these pictures i am thinking about my loved ones and wonder do you see the real me at all.
sometimes i put my headphones on and walk with my music to do not think at all. but then again i miss your voices so i think maybe we should collab and stall. in this place where the sun shines and the moon rise above us we listen to the voices that surrounds us all. and these days i think about the man i lost over 13years ago. he died and we were suppose to get married but maybe the fate is to sometimes lose one love. so we can know how to love another and not to accept abuse at all. thus i know i have been abused bullied hitten and raped. even that there has been murder and broken ribs inside. i wish for someone to think and believe my words and voice as i have done for you all. i do not know what my future will look like but there is one thing i do know for sure. and that is that you people have to do something to help us humans or you will die ones more.
look around you and see how the world is changing and open your minds to a society for us all. here in my motherland there are so many different humans that i can feel and see the exchange of loved souls. but i have to admit that i struggle within because the lack of living is somewhat real and open for us all. letting people getting away with murder and abuse should not be something we should see anymore. i have this summer lost unborn humans and now i will not take this anymore………
i arrived here in korea on the 21th of september since then i have walked almost all around this city. of course i have bought a few things to remember and the won has been spent all over town. my soul is happier now than ever but my tears fall down from the corners of my eyes. i have talked eaten and met a lot of good humans and this country is so much more than my soul can remember. i have fallen for this place and found something to cherish so i bought myself an hanbok to wear for seoul and my birthparents.
the summer is late but warm and comforting as i have brought my dresses and style for my own. the air is clean even tho there are a million cars driving around on the road of seoul town. as i see all the fellow koreans i think to myself that i am where i belong. but i feel dumb because i cannot speak the proper language and are somewhat stupider than the common man i know. i know how the words are written and pronouced but still i have not learned the meaning alone.
i have met someone that i keep close in my soul and there are new friends running all over town. these lights shine as stars with colors that do not fade. and as the led light blinks a picture is shown. i see your souls and feel the uncertain thus i know some of you judge my soul. i have seen both rich and poor and i belong to this town. i have tried some of the dishes i have dreamed about but still there are so much more to come. as i have walked by the river and failed at seouls national cemetary i will go back tomorrow to show respect for the dead souls.
the rules and ethics are somewhat been mixed and i have remembered the wrong ones i know. my mind has gone so far and long that the timeline and railway does cross all over town. as we mix the old with the new i have much more to experience and wish for this seoul to be a gold mine of its own. where i try to write poetry in hangeul i do not know. but i hope to be respectful when the day will come. there are so many souls and i have opened up a realm and a way where an 오빠 has come into my seoul. whether there are us or another the time will show but one thing i know is that love has not gone. as far as i have traveled i have found a place i can call home………
“우리는 우리의 영혼과 함께 사는 것처럼 살고 있습니다.”~김유화이 ♾ 2017 #증만ㅅㅎ에로한원김유화이 #author #시인 #한국사람 #alone #anybryde #김유화이 #everydaymoments #fighting #travelinginkoreaseoul #서울에서 #anybrydephoto✌
this summer i ended up in a new box again. homeless is probably the best way to describe it. i do not know how i feel am i sad or sorry. but somehow i am also happy inside me. the burden of a home where people break in and torture me to an almost death is over thank god. so now i am kind of an incognito and new with a vision and a mindset that are truly set free. for those who have blamed me and yelled at me for years i hope you are ashamed and that you will be saddened for ever. i know it might be harsh but my exterior has changed and i have this wish of never being born.
i do not know what i have done wrong nor will i ever know why you are so fucked up. this place where i have lived for so many years are now a place i hate and feel misplaced. the longing for happiness humans animals and life is stronger now that the world shows itself. i know my dreams are big but why not am i always thinking. these streets i have walked are not meant for the living. this is a city where everybody comes to die and certain you will all vanish someday. i see shadows of people from a terrorattack as well for the ones who believe they are something.
is it wrong to be honest and write about life when we all experience loss grief sorrows and death. is this not a place to be us as humans should be. are we not the same under our skin. where would we be if it were not for our ancestors. would we be where we are if it were not for slavery. who are we not to be thankful for life when all some of you do is party and fuck around. i am ashamed for the ones who i have had in my life but now i know that as a victim i have let myself been abused to many times. so i put my foot down and said stop ones again and turned myself around to see the world with new eyes. i wish some of you souls still would be alive next to me but i am humble amd thankful for you being around me. so now i am going to an old new place called seoul hoping for answer and maybe meeting loved ones. i do not know if i am the last in my bloodline but in my papers it says i am the orphan. in hanyang district i have some roots and i hope there are some humans who will see me through. in a heart and a soul i never begged for anything but this time i want someone to just listen to me.
being completely alone and lonely is somewhat natural but also and enlightening. i can distance myself to ignorance and stupidity and see some of you for what and who you really are and supposed to be. this life now for over 36 somewhat years is also something to be thankful for. but in reality i think of the darkness and where my path has been i have grown so much. my burden in life is being alive but now it is time to live for ones.